I was married twice.  There were twenty years between them and both were abusive, the last being mostly verbal which tore my sexuality down, down, down.  It was a control thing and I do know that now, but it doesn't help me hearing what he would say to hurt me and now I just feel that I'm not desirable anymore.  I am 68 and still have the desire but scared of being looked upon as not what any man would want.  Do you guys still look for the model types at our age?